I’m bored to death!

I hate these situations being unoccupied and feeling so unproductive. It’s summer baby and I still feel uneasy. This anxiety is getting to my my head. I had plans for this month long break yet I’m being so unproductive. Actually I have a lot of things to do on my list. It’s so ironic when I want to accomplish those but there’s a side of me that tells me “ayoko, chaka na”. And when these are already due, that’s when Im crashing everything and pulling an all nighter and I get stressed fand things become half cooked. May be it’s in my subconsious that there’s a lot of things to do that my minds responds “which should i do first?” which ends up I’m not able to do anything for the time being unless its already due tomorrow or today. Maybe being so busy and always occupied on the most of my college life has led me to be like this, having a mindset that I can do THOSE stuffs later.

I wanted a life wihtout regrets. That’s why I always want that best of what I have. life is really full of conflicts and ironies. This but that. that but this. I cant even spell my character.

Im feeling this again. This weariness and the emoness.

I think people need people who need them too especially on aspects that they do the best.

i can actually finish the tv series I am watching. Im on the 20th chapter of this 25 chapter series.

I want to code for my thesis but I cant rid of the error!

I want to buy my formal clothes but I cant.

I want to wake up early but my eyes close after snoozing the alarm.

Days pass and i am really being unproductive!!!